Day Three

No workout today. Too much to do. My behind is still sore, which is FABULOUS. I've avoided temptation wonderfully today. I'm proud of my food choices too. I'm a little stressed, so I've been eating all my WW snacks (their EXPENSIVE! ah!), which I need to not do. I've gotta find more filling snacks. I'm mentally all siked out. I gained 1.6 lbs. over the last 2 weeks, which honestly, is really nothing special. I'm looking forward to weighing in next Thursday because this new exercises regime is definatly taking off fabulously. Tommorow I'm back on! For sure!! I'm going to find out the public swim times at the local pool so I can go and do that sometime next week. And I'm planning on cooking more for myself and being more creative this week with my food choices.

KEEPING MY GOAL IN MIND: No extra booty hanging out my swimsuit this summer. YES! So worth pushing it these next few months!! YEAH!!!!!

Day Two

Wow. I'm SORE from yesterday's workout. I did the elliptical machine for 30 minutes and some weights and lunges. I think the lunges are what's making my booty so sore. I LOVE IT! I'm actually really excited for today's workout...which is very suprising. I think this Self-Challenge is going to be awesome.
I'm look forward to cooking more for myself and learning to snack more effeciently. As of now, I'm not. I'm not eating enough. At least, not enough of the good stuff.
YEAH! I'm going to workout again today!! haha! can't wait.

Here are some the activities that I want to try: swimming during public swim, hip hop class (2 hrs. sat. mornings), salsa events (3 hrs. of salsa=1,000 calories. BURN BEBE!!), kyaking in the pool (aparently this is available!), hiking (discovery park, etc.), Piyo (friday afternoons at Vision Quest).

Here are some of the foods I want to try: Blueberries, salmon, dishes with spinach in them, etc.

THE SELF CHALLENGE

Ricidulous. I've gained a bunch of weight. I know it. WHO GIVES A CARE?! Seriously. I've made it so far that I cannot once again become consumed with numbers.
I've joined the self magazine, "Self Challenge 2007." It is a 3 month plan that will jump start and help you reach your goals. My goal? Wear a bathing this year without my butt falling out of it! Yep. That is my valient goal which I'll be working towards. I'm really excited about this challenge because it's simple and apparently, effective too. Which is always a benefit! Diet pills= simple but not effective. Self Challenge 2007= simple and effective. I like it.
Here's the plan...

30-minutes of cardio 3 times a week, 25 minutes of strength training 3 times a week.
Plus, I'm doing weight watchers, which I'm sure everybody knows about by now. I'll be keeping a workout and food log to keep me accountable and help track my progress. I'm REALLY EXCITED!

Day One: I have very little energy which I think is partly because of my imbalanced diet. I need to add more dairy, whole grains, leafy greens, fish and lean meat. I've got a little in there but NOT ENOUGH. I love the elliptical machine. I've got my little routine down pat: Magazine, iPod (sean paul, rhianna, bow-wow, beyonce...), every two minutes I switch going forward with the elliptical then backward (KILLER on the quads!!). It's awesome, 30 minutes goes by wicked fast. So far I've learned:

-I don't snack well.
-I need to lift weights before I do cardio.
-I cannot expect dramatic results after one day.
-Encouraged by this program because I know that I'll be burning it away SOON.

Back In the Day

I feel like I'm in 7th grade again. I just "stole" 3 chocolate kisses of my mom's, ate them when no one was home, then smashed the wrappers into a little ball and hid it where no one would find it.

When I was in junior high I would eat, literally, pounds of candy a week but no one would ever know. I'd stash the wrappers and then when the piles got to big to conceal I would flush them down the toilet by the handfuls.
Yes, I have an abusive, binge-eating past that I'm thankful I no longer have. However, for some reason, this week has just been aweful. Little things like that have happened all week and it's SOOO stressful.

I remember feeling completely defeated and depressed all of 7th grade. I would take $1-5 dollars a couple of times a week from my parents and buy 2 packages of Otis Spunkmyer cookies from the Cafateria. Plus a 12 inch sub sandwich and candy bars whenever I had some extra change.

I'm so NOT proud of this relationship I had with food. My relationship now is completely different. Even though this week has been difficult, it's NOTHING like it has been in the past. And therefore, the silver-lining of my week is, an appreciation for how FAR I'VE COME!!! AND WHERE I'M HEADING TO!!!

50 lbs. doesn't seem such a far-way goal now...

1/9/07: I went up .4 this week. no big deal. I know why and I'm not sweating it. Get this...I only have 8 more lbs. until my 20% mark. That's right, at 38 lbs. I will have lost 20% of my body weight! Isn't that incredible?!?! I'm wicked proud. It's been such an amazing year, weight-wise. After losing 30 lbs. I:

-I love that I don't feel like I'm having a panic attack when I slip up and eat a piece of cake. I now know that it's not the end of the world!!! The guilt is gone.

-I love that I have shape now. I've always been "curvy" but now I'm a definate hour-glass and I think that's incredibly beautiful.

-I love that I can feel my hip bones. I know it seens ridiculous, but before I lost this weight I had to lay down on the ground and suck my gut in JUST to feel those bones. It's awesome actually being able to see them when I stand up. haha!

-I love that I breezed through the holidays and New Years like it was just another week out of my life. Not like it was the beginning of some huge, life changing diet plan. I'm done with New Year's Resolutions. Where did we EVER get the idea that diets had to start on Monday's and after the holidays, rather than after lunch on a Wednesday on VACATION! seriously.

-I love that I can fit into skinny jeans.

-I love that I no longer postion myself in photos the same way: chin up, stomach in, arms behind, no full smile (I thought it made my cheecks look chubby! Oh for goodness sakes!!!)...etc.

-I love that I now know how to eat properlly and can eat out anywhere now without risking total diet breakdown.

-I love that I havn't given up. In the past, I havn't been ready to lose this weight. Last March, I decided I was. I was DONE feeling angry and sick about my body...no one should feel that way! I'm not there yet, but I'm not going to give up. I'm this for the long-haul. No more resolutions...this is just my life.

2/1/07: I lost 1 lb. 2 WEEKS AGO. This week, I lost 2.2 lbs. WHICH MEANS...DRUM ROLL PLEASE!!!...THIS OFFICIALLY MAKES 31 lbs. YES! I broke the 4 month plateau and PASSED my 30 lb. mark. YYYYEEEEEESSSSS! gah.