6/18/07

Great week. Bad week. Bad week. And here I sit. I can't seem to be consistent. I'm turning to food for all the wrong reasons and not working out. Which is leaving me feeling depressed, disgusting and out of control. I don't like feel this way. I hate being so obsessed with my body, no one should be. I know how to solve my current predicament but somehow I can't muster up the motivation and drive to actually do that..consistently. I'm down 2.8 then down 1.4, then up 2.8. AH. I hate that I know the point value of everything as I'm stuffing it into my face. I hate that I can't just seem to snap back on program.