5/28/07

wow. Today was the first day that I just woke up, slipped on a pair of skinny jeans and a t-shirt and walked out the door. Okay, I took shower first. :) Starting this whole weight loss journey over a year ago, it was my goal to be able to put on a pair of jeans and a t-shirt without worrying about anything. Today I did. It feels incredible. so out of this world incredible! And, I bought a straight cut brocade dress today in a size 8. AHHH. I've gone from a 16 to an 8. That's just amazing to me.

yesterday was interesting. While I was working out I suddenly became overwhelmingly discouraged and defeated. I couldn't stay on the tredmill and I felt like crying. I had no idea what was going on. it was the strangest thing. All these super negative thoughts were overwhelming me. Thoughts like, "you cannot do this!", "You'll always be a big girl", "this workout isn't gonna make all that cellulite you have go away, don't even try."
I'm NOT that girl. I'm not the type to get down on myself like that. I got off the tredmill and just prayed. I think it was the Devil's work. Anyways, I got back on the tredmill and worked out a little longer. It ended well.

Despite what the scale tells me, 15 lbs from goal, I've come further then I ever thought was possible. The fact that I can just throw something on in the morning is an incredible feat.
Before I would have spent an hour trying on different things trying to figure out what would be the most flattering. Dress over jeans with a sweater probably, to cover up my arms, stomach and booty. Hair down because up made my face look too round. etc. No one needs that stress. I no longer have it.. PRAISE GOD.