Song of the Day

"If I had my way" by: Jill Paquette

THIS IS A PHENOMENAL SONG!! The music and lyrics are both just amazing. I SO recommend Jill Paquette, all her stuff is sooo good. She is inpsires me musically so much. You can listen to this song on her Myspace page, I don't have a link for it though. www.myspace.com (go to the music section and type in Jill Paquette under "band name")

IT'S SOOO GOOD! :)

Song of the Day

"Don't Cha Want A Ride" by: Joss Stone

This song has got a soulful, 70's vibe to it. I love it! www.jossstone.com go there to listen to it!

Song of the Day

"Catch Your Wave" by the Click Five

Such an awesome song. I don't really like cause it inspires me or anything it's just got amazing music. It's sort-of got of a mid-80's rock vibe to it and I love it!! :) MAN!! Yeah! It's one of those songs that you don't really get tired of listening to. www.theclickfive.com if you go there it'll start playing right off the bat. It rocks!

Is God good?

Today I cried WITH my dad for the first time ever and hugged him for the first time (like an actual HUG) in about 2 years, maybe more. It was one of the most amazing experiences I've had in a long time. I talked with him about stuff that has hurt me over the years and his parenting and stuff. It was pretty much incredible. Then I got to worship team and heard some shocking and horrific news. Something that shook me up so bad that I was just numb for a while. My best friends had a horrible loss, someone they were close to, that alot of people loved and knew. This best friend of theirs killed himself. This man was a God-fearing, lover of Christ who seemed like the last person who would do something like that. Utter confusion, suffering and grief has come over these friends of mine who have suffered this loss and it leaves me wondering and questioning so many people that I know and love and how God is such a mystery.
I've been praying for something to happen between my dad and I for a very long time and now it has. A wonderful, loving Christian man who seemed to have a love for people and life is now dead because of a gun which he willfully took his own life with. Is God good? I mean, is he ALWAYS good? Can there really be a reason behind everything? Or at least a purpose and plan behind it? Could God have stopped this horrific tragedy to such a young man? Or does the fact that he gave us free will stop that intervention? Is God good? That is the question that determains so much of who we are, how we view our circumstances and other people's circumstances...I'm gonna miss Vinny. I'm sure when Jesus met him in Heaven he was like, "Dude! You wern't supposed to be here so soon! I had so much more for you!" Oh MAN my heart's hurin' so much right now...
LIVE LIFE WHILE YOU HAVE IT! God is worth LIVING for just as much as he is worth dying for!

Music

So, I guess I'm a song writer. As most of you know who are either loyal readers of this blog or who just know me, you know that I love music. I've been singing forever. And lately I've been honing my writing skills and putting them down in a lyrical format. It's pretty awesome. I never thought I could write a song. And now I have 7. HAHAHA! Since I don't play any instrument (although I plan on learning guitar in the near future)I havn't put music to any of the songs but I've got a lot of musical friends to collaborate with. I'M SO JAZZED! The following is an example of one the songs I've written...more to come...

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Inspired by: Conversations of temptation, sin and an overall desperatness for God, with a friend of mine. I originally wrote it for that person to sing but a few updates and it pretty much states my heart's cry too. :)

Forgive me God for not wanting you as much as I need you
Give me a desire for you that's stronger than the lusts of the world
His chocolate eyes melt my heart
May the taste of your sweet presence satisfy deeper
What I don't want to do I do and what I do want to do I don't
Hush the confusion

(Chorus)
I cry from the depths
I scream from the pit that I'm stuck in
The silence is too loud, are you saying something?

A downpour of doubt floods my pillow
Clouds of unbelief fog my view
May your Son shine hope into my life
Fear comes in waves
Still the sea of my soul
I believe, but oh help my unbelief
For the first time in forever may I feel you near
My fig leaves are wearing thin
Clothe me in righteousness

(Chorus)

(Bridge)
My sleeping soul needs a wake-up call
Your love satisfies all of me but I'm parched
It casts out fear but I'm scared stiff
Sin gnaws at me like a bad habut
Set me free, oh Lord, set me free

(Chorus again with revised words)
I cry from the depths
I scream from the pit that I'm stuck in
The silence is too loud, they say you're still whispering...
I cry from the depths
I scream from the pit
My prayers feel like they're bouncing off my ceiling
Save me from myself
The silence is too loud, are you saying something?
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More to come. www.myspace.com/whitneyhouser

All of my friends

Check out the lyrics of this great song my Amos Lee....I love it!

All My Friends

All my friends
They all live in pain
Longing for the warmth of childhood to bring them home again
All my friends
They got broken hearts
And if the world’s a stage we’re searching for our parts

We’ll face the winds that break the strongest of trees
Beckon for the sweet soft summer breeze

All my friends
They got broken wings
Never will you hear them asking why the caged bird sings
All my friends
They know how to live
Oh, so much sorrow and so much love to give

We’ll face the winds that break the strongest of trees
Beckon for the sweet soft summer breeze


Now we all know that the storm is coming
Every body wants to know which way to go
I see the crowds a running
The wind’s gonna blow

All my friends are dear to me
Oh when the storm comes they’re as close as family
All my friends are the ones I choose
Oh, if I hear them knockin’
You know I can’t refuse

We’ll face the winds that break the strongest of trees
Beckon for the sweet soft summer breeze

All my friends
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Hair no more

Hair today gone...yesterday. hahaha! I cut about 10 inches off my hair yesterday. I LOVE it! It's so different and updated. WOO HOO! I'll show a picture,when I have one,
later. :)

Sheltered

I fear people's opinions of me. I'm afraid that they see me but not all of me and judge me accordingly. I'm afraid that they see me as a sheltered, nieve girl who is closed minded and inexperienced. So, in an effort to shatter any illusions they may have of me, I sin. No, nothing too blatent...I don't go around sleeping with people or doing drugs or anything harmful like that. But I've become bitter because I feel like that's the only way I can be in their presence and not be "judged"...isn't that interesting. A good friend, in fact, one of my best friends, tonight said that she has learned to despise people who say they have it all together and accept those who sin blatently. I feel like I have to be the 2nd one. THIS ISN'T CORRECT!! NO!!!! Man. Whoever is reading this...I'm struggling right now with establishing an identity away from and not shaped by the opinions of others and it's so difficult.

I'm not a bad person, I just do bad things...

I heard someone say this today, and it made me think. I don't know if I fully agree with that view point.
I believe that what we do is a manifestation of something bigger, something more along the lines of who we are. What we do is a statement of what we believe. I belive that who we are is defined by what we belive and what we belive decides alot of what we do. Yes, we can be pursuaded by outside circumstances and yes who we are is often changed by that but the root of it all is still our own system of beliefs. For me, God and his Word defines who I am...or it should. My desire is that my will would be matched with his, but it's not complete yet...at all!! I don't know, but just hearing someone say that today really made me think...what do you think???
I wanna know.

~Whitney

Tommorow

Okay, so if I could decide what I wanted to do tommorow. If I had any sort of control over my life and future I have certain things I'd do. But...I know that I'm not, God is. So, therefore I dream WITH him. I pray and talk with him about the things I love knowing that he knows me better than I know myself and loves me infinatly. Here are some of my dreams that I hope someday, in some form, happen, because that would rock.

Graduate highschool and start seriously learning how to play guitar. Enroll in YWAM. Travel and study with YWAM for 6 months. Enroll in a school where I can study the Word and music. While in college hold a part-time job so I can earn enough money to buy fabric and patterns. I want to be able to make, design and sell my own clothing. Graduate from college. I would love to make music and sing under a record company of sorts someday. I'd love to design clothing and own my own bakery/bookstore someday. I very much want to be married, it would rock my world if I was to marry a musician and be able to sing and play with him someday...but it's all in God's hands. I really want to have kids AND adopt.

Loving a Person

Here's another one...an amazing song that seriously says what my heart and mouth have yet to agree on how to say...

Loving a Person

by Sara Groves and Gordon Kennedy

Loving a person just the way they are, it's no small thing
It takes some time to see things through
Sometimes things change, sometimes we're waiting
We need grace either way

Hold on to me
I'll hold on to you
Let's find out the beauty of seeing things through

There's a lot of pain in reaching out and trying
It's a vulnerable place to be
Love and pride can't occupy the same spaces baby
Only one makes you free

Hold on to me
I'll hold on to you
Let's find out the beauty of seeing things through

If we go looking for offense
We're going to find it
If we go looking for real love
We're going to find it

What am I to you? by Norah Jones

Lately, I have been in serious need to know who I am to people, some in particular...this song says it so well. It's a great jazz song and I LOVE the music that goes with it, but the words are phenomenal so I thought I'd share...

What am I to you
Tell me darling true
To me you are the sea
Fast as you can be
And deep the shade of blue

When you're feeling low
To whom else do you go
See I cry if you hurt
I'd give you my last shirt
Because I love you so

If my sky should fall
Would you even call
Opened up my heart
I never want to part
I'm giving you the ball

When I look in your eyes
I can feel the butterflies
I love you when you're blue
Tell me darlin' true
What am I to you

Yeah well if my sky should fall
Would you even call
Opened up my heart
Never wanna part
I'm giving you the ball

When I look in your eyes
I can feel the butterflies
Could you find a love in me
Could you carve me in a tree
Don't fill my heart with lies

I will you love when you're blue
Tell me darlin' true
What am I to you
What am I to you
What am I to you