Sheltered

I fear people's opinions of me. I'm afraid that they see me but not all of me and judge me accordingly. I'm afraid that they see me as a sheltered, nieve girl who is closed minded and inexperienced. So, in an effort to shatter any illusions they may have of me, I sin. No, nothing too blatent...I don't go around sleeping with people or doing drugs or anything harmful like that. But I've become bitter because I feel like that's the only way I can be in their presence and not be "judged"...isn't that interesting. A good friend, in fact, one of my best friends, tonight said that she has learned to despise people who say they have it all together and accept those who sin blatently. I feel like I have to be the 2nd one. THIS ISN'T CORRECT!! NO!!!! Man. Whoever is reading this...I'm struggling right now with establishing an identity away from and not shaped by the opinions of others and it's so difficult.