Ilusions

Everyone views themselves a certain way and wants to be something in particular, usually not something they already are. Because who hopes for what they already have...I'm starting a black and white photography class tommorow up at the college. I'm really excited to see what sort-of projects they assign! I was dreaming and wondering today about possible projects that would be interesting. I thought that a self-portrait would be, considering you're taking the picture yourself. Or even better, take a picture that captures how you view yourself and then another one in what you wish you were or hope to see someday in yourself. I think it would be fasinating to see what people took. I was thinking about what I would take. The more I dreamt about it, a word kept coming into my mind. That word was "captivating". That's what I wish to be. I think the picture that would capture who I am now would be a picture of a little girl staring into a shop window at Christmas time, Or a little girl twirling around. I think that I approach much of time with wide-eyed wonder. There's a certain nievite (sp?) and awe that I bring to life's situations.
What is captivating? It's certainly not perfection. It has nothing to do with a beautiful dress and a field of flowers. But what is it exactly? I can't put my finger on the words. But I know that it's what I desire to be...