Joy and sadness

You know, life is interesting. What am I saying, of course you know that. What I should say is, humans are interesting. I am really excited about certain things and extremly depressed and sad about alot of other things.
Last night I pretty much cried myself to sleep over really stupid stuff, that really isn't that stupid, I just feel like an idiot about it. I am thrilled about a few things that are happening in life and yet when I see the really deep anguish and depression that people I know are suffering from it just breaks down that joy into nothingness. I don't tell anyone most of the stuff in my life out of fear that they'll try and fix it, when I know perfectly well that THEY CAN'T. I do that. When someone tells me something hard that they are struggling with I feel completly hopeless/helpless because I know that I can't do anything. Ummm....WHY NOT TURN TO GOD! Dah. Geeze!! I don't do that. I mean that is literally the last thing I do. I think that, "Oh, well if I suffer with this burden (thats NOT EVEN MINE!) then maybe..."....but no, that's just it. I KNOW nothing will happen by me holding onto people's burdens, but I do it anyways.
Lately I have felt really horrible because I'm worried that I am bothering people, because I don't have something magical to say that will make them feel any better. I just leave them alone. But anyone who knows me well, will realize that that is NOT ME. I'm not someone who naturally "butts out" of people's lives. I'm someone who normally dives in head first with the encouragement. But lately something (I don't know if it's a good or a bad thing) has been holding me back. This feeling that I really am not wanted or needed and that I would be better somewhere else. Just really awkward. That's the perfect word to describe it. I feel awkward. I tell people I will call them and then I don't because nothing makes me more awkward then not knowing what to say. And the fear that they are someone who cares about stuff like that, that if I can't say something encouraging...then why call?! And then that part of me that SO wants to encourage them beats me up and tells me that I'm being a lazy jerk for not calling and saying...SOMETHING!! *sad sigh*....I don't really know what to do.
I've got alot of crap that I don't talk about it my life and I want to talk about it with someone, but I'm worried that I'll just burden them with it, or worse, they won't have anything to say back to me and then I'll feel even more awkward and horrible because I just spilled my guts to someone who really didn't even care or want to listen.
I want more then anything right now to be there for the people I love the most, who are hurting really bad, but everytime I see them I have this internal battle with myself as to what to do...hug or not hug, talk to or not talk to, call or not call?! AHHHHHHHH!!!! Gosh. I'm really hurting right now, but I don't know what to do with it all. And God...I need him. Real bad.