I don't know what to say...

I don't have any clue as to what to say right now. I don't really have anything to say. But many great blogs have started with someone not having anything to say. Sometimes that nothing turned into a 2 page long blog about...nothing. ha! Well, lets see...I'll be 18 in 11 days. That's pretty exciting. I love planning parties. This year I'm going to have a Moroccan theamed party (well, the colors will be like that but I'm not really diggin' the Moroccan food...).
So, I have this issue about closer I've discovered. I get this horrible empty sinking feeling inside of me when I either don't get to say good-bye to someone or don't get to say good-bye properlly (sp?). For example: Tonight I went to youth group (I go to a youth group at Seatac Bible Church in Seatac on Wednesday nights)
and at the end I didn't really get a good bye from my good friends. Just sort-of a see ya lata... I hate that. It bothers me so much, and I don't really know why. I suppose I'm just a "closer" person, I've got to hug the person good-bye and make sure I know that this isn't "Hey good-bye see you next week" but it's just "Hey good-bye, I love you, talk with you probably tommorow..." I dunno, I don't like saying good-bye to people even if it's just for a little bit. And if I must, which yes, I must...I wanna know when I'll be talking with them next because...well, I don't know. I think that only one person has ever realized this about me. My good friend Margo. She noticed it earlier this year and it's good to know that someone knows that I'm not just weird and hanging around, I'm waiting for a hug good-bye...I need closer. HA! Yeah, that's my blog. Sort. Sweet. Pretty much not deep. :) Oh well...