music, camp, etc...
Summer camp this year was amazing. Every night at campfire (at during the day too) Joe (guitar, vocals), Aaron(jimbi--sp?!), Matt (violin) and I (vocals) led the worship. As I stood there singing totally in-awe of the presence of the Lord I realized that THIS is what I was made to do. I can't imagin doing anything else for the rest of my life. Worshiping the Lord in song, making music, ahhh! That thrills me to death. And because it thrills me to death even thinking about it, that somehow confirms in my heart that that is what I'm meant to do. God always seems to have a "great" way of changing your plans, but hey, his will is perfect right?! SOOO....in even if I don't end up making music God's will will be done, and that is honestly all that I really desire to happen.
BUT...OH MY WORD! :D How thrilling is the thought of making music professionally. ha!! YEAH!
I'm going to be a Senior this year and then I'm planning on taking a year off to do YWAM (youth with a mission) which for any of you who don't know, is a short-term mission organization that trains you for 3 months (discipleship training school, a.k.a: DTS) then you do 6-8 weeks (I think) of outreach then 8 weeks (I think) of international missions. This is so exciting to me. Mostly because you can go ANYWHERE in the world for your training and can choose it based on your passions and interests and then can choose, depending on the base you go to, what country you go to for your mission work. I have a passion for traveling and for people so I'm thilled. :D
After YWAM I hope to enroll in a Bible college. I really desire to have that education. That training and fellowship with other believers.
Then my goal, which freaks me out a bit, is to be signed on a christian record label. I sing, but I don't play any instruments and that is greatly intimidating to me right now because I don't know if I have the ability to "make music" but man, all I know is that if I don't a part of me won't really be living out God's will for my life. I love to write and I LOVE to sing so maybe others can just help me with the music part as I slowly learn guitar. ha! I'd really love to be able to someday accompany myself.
For the longest time I NEVER, EVER thought that music would be something I'd get into professionally. I always thought it was just this little gift that God gave me to use for him and only him and never share outside the church. When you really think about that, you can see how that's a total lie, but that's always been my philosophy. It has just never seemed humble to ever enjoy or recognize that I can sing. Even now as I say it I feel extreamly uncomfortable. Why?! I have no clue.
I was talking with Joe (good friend and worship pastor at church) a couple of months ago about it and it's interesting because he used to think the same things but then he realized it was a lie from the PIT OF HELL. I was like, "oh, really. HA! Okay..." It's still sort-of something I'm having to train myself not to believe anymore and camp sure peeled back a layer of mine regarding that. I'm so excited and the more I think about it, the more excited I become. :D
Lord God, I havn't talked with you in a while ("It seems to easy to call you Savior, not close enough to call you God" -Jars of Clay) and I have mixed intentions on talking with you now. Abba, I need you and I can't do anything without you. I've tried, and I've failed. GOD!!! I lay down all of this before you because I don't know what else to do with it. Help me God, drag me up out of this pit I've found myself in and dust me off Lord God. I need to see you and I need to see myself like you see me. Please Lord, thank you for the CROSS OF CHRIST! I stand under that truth now. Guard my heart Lord, you say it's the wellspring of my life. I need to FEEL your love Lord Jesus. I need to FEEL your arms wrapped around me holding me tightly. I desperatly need to know that you are here and nothing anyone will ever say will ever convince me of that more than for YOU to show me. LORD JESUS! I need you!!
Love and adoration from your daughter,
Whitney Elizabeth
posted by Whitney at 10:14 AM
4 Comments:
actually, I believe it is djimbe or something like that. I know it starts with a d. professional music is something that I've looked in to. its the one thing that I do really enjoy with all my heart. there is the issue with how much money you make, but that shouldn't be first priority anyway. it sounds like you have some impressive goals set. I know you have what it takes to achieve them and I wish you the best.
Aaron
12:06 PM
Rock on chica!!! YWAM would be an awsome experience!!! keep me posted, i'd love to be a prayer partner for you if you go
:)
12:07 PM
Forbid it, Lord, that I should boast,
Save in the death of Christ my God!
All the vain things that charm me most,
I sacrifice them to His blood.
Martin Luther
"When I Survey The Wonderous Cross"
1:39 AM
i ran into your blog a couple of months ago, bookmarked it and had been checking in periodically. it is awesome... there have been so many words of encouragement and a great attitude towards following jesus... i would of called myself a christian throghout highschool, but last year through campus crusade(you probably have heard the name?) i gave my life to christ and joined a bible study to actively seek jesus... the communtiy i am part of at college(cal poly, san luis obispo, calif.) is great but since the beginning of the summer i have been separated from many of those great christians... over this summer i worked as a ymca camp counselor and spent some much needed time with my family(agian 'christians,' but not following jesus)... it was demanding work with inner city kids and especially being away from my faith communty.
i 'backslid', was attacked by spiritual warfare, lost some of fatih, as one might say, it wasn't terrible, but i seperated myself from god. i have a lot of great friends that show me jesus's love and i was doing great with their prayers until recently... to make a long story short your prayer brought many a tear to my eye... thank you...
i am returnign to my faith communty in the coming week and am going to be a bible study leader in the dorms there. i think that through my expereinces being apart from jesus in the last month has shown me the need of those students that don't know jesus and i feel that it was all worth it if i can relate to them that much better. thanks for your prayer and if you would like to think of me the next time you pray it would mean a lot to me.
awesome... i've been meaning to comment for a while, even now i should be sleeping, goodnight, god bless!
11:55 PM
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