Piggy Back Rides

One of my absolute best
friends, Margo Maxine (see above) and I have been keeping each other accountable for some various things in our lives over the past few months
or so. It's been really amazing! And in one of the most powerful and memorable conversations we had, a really great analogy came forth. I for some time have been struggling with carrying the emotional burdens of friends. God has placed in me a really deep love for my friends and I really despise superficiality (what a hypocrite I am, I succome to that SOO much, but still I HATE it!!!), and I try and never let my closest friendships be anything other than deep. So, anyways, that's a really great thing except when you allow that to determain what you're all about and what you feel on a day-to-day basis. And that is a major problem that I have. I try to be God in people's lives and try really hard to make everything that isn't okay with them okay. And if I don't actually do anything I think about it so hard that I get depressed and really discouraged. Not good. That's not loving them, that's just plain unhealthy. So, ANYWAYS, the analogy. We decided that it wasn't good to give people piggy back rides (carry them and their burdens) because you'll get really tired really fast and most importantly...they'll never learn how to walk. GOD HAS TO BE THE ONE TO TEACH THEM THROUGH IT ALL!!
AHHHH! So, that's what I'm really battling with right now. I'm giving some really big piggy back rides and the only one who's getting hurt is me and nothing is happening with them. In fact, they probably don't even feel more loved, probably just clostrophobic. GRRRR....
Okay. So, the point of all of this is to lay this burden at the foot of the cross, along with my other big pile of luggage and continue to walk with the Lord.
*Sigh*